When the transformation begins.

When you are free from the denial, the excuses, the “I will begin tomorrows”.⁣⁣When you are free from the pretending you’re ok and the hiding the pain, when you’re strong enough to face life without a crutch that’s actually harming you.⁣⁣When you say frank that and do better every damn day.⁣⁣That’s when the transformation begins.Continue reading “When the transformation begins.”

a little bit of sunshine & a whole lot of love

It’s amazing what a little bit a sunshine + whole lotta love will do for a girl. 😌🖤✨✨✨⁣ Today 3 years ago we got the keys to a beautiful bright home with hope that yet another game of make believe will finally make life ok. ⁣⁣Less than 45 days later my dad and brother wereContinue reading “a little bit of sunshine & a whole lot of love”

Dreams on Dreams on Dreams

Tonight we manifested our dreams for 2020 and made dry shampoo to use while we tackle them.✨🌱🖤 We dropped rose on our crown, diffused into the future and listened to meditation music.It was spiritual, peaceful + everything my heart needed. 🖤 My one word for 2020 is community and this evening was the perfect start.Continue reading “Dreams on Dreams on Dreams”

I wish I could tell her.

Wish I could tell her. ⁣Wish I could warn her. ⁣⁣You really think this is it.⁣⁣It’s not. ⁣⁣RUN. ⁣🖤⁣🖤⁣🖤⁣⁣ Not even 6 weeks later he beat me up so horrifically in that beautiful kitchen, I still get flashbacks and have a hard time with the memories. ⁣⁣2 weeks after that the blood from my faceContinue reading “I wish I could tell her.”

At the end of the day, we have it all.

A few things got me with through yesterday but alcohol was not one of them. When you go through hard shit sober, it’s a lot. Like a lot a lot. 😫 ++ when you pretty much drank for all the emotions + you’re forced to sit with them finally. Holy hell.But damn.When you break througContinue reading “At the end of the day, we have it all.”