a birthday to actually remember

Aging like a boss if I do say so myself! 😎

6 years ago I was toasting to leaving my 20s. Gone are the days of Jager bombs and VoCo eyes.

This birthday I will actually remember the whole thing.

GO ME! πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸΌπŸ–€

Hello July

I have been waiting for you. 🀩

Typically I look forward to July since It’s my birthday month. ♋️

This July however is EXTRA AMAZING! 
Young Living’s Grand Convention is celebrating 25 YEARS of helping families live life less toxic and I’ll be there with my Mama in Utah jumping in the lavender fields and loving on my tribe. #cantfrankinwait

the topper of all I’ll be ONE YEAR ALCOHOL FREE on July 25th. 🀩🀯😎 This is gonna be one EPIC July. πŸ–€βœ¨

PS: the repeating numbers makes me oddly more excited. πŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌβœ¨βœ¨πŸ–€

Strong + Powerful

How do you measure STRENGTH + POWER?

Guess it depends on what you want to find out.

I am small. Even at my heaviest, I’m not tall and have a small frame. This is my BODY TYPE.Β 

I am however BIG in personality. I am LOUD, I talk A whole LOT, + am a FORCE to be reckoned with.Β 
But even this BIG personality was conditioned to believe being small in size = weak, that having only a high school diploma made me stupid + having emotions or needs made me crazy.

I now know these are all lies but just as repeating the behavior to workout consistently or eat right slowly changes and conditions your body to be stronger + healthier, the same happens when we feed or stimulate our body + minds with negative talk and bad behavior.

This can come from toxic people and toxic environments you allow to consistently condition your mind without even realizing it’s happening. 
Abusers learn early + fast how to use their strengths to weaken yours. This is a tactic, this doesn’t have to be a punch or direct insult because it doesn’t take being beat up to have your power be weakened. Chipping away at your worth and strength piece by piece.

Only when you regain the strength and the power from the inside can you create the change towards your healing and growth.Β 
Only when you believe in your power and strength now matter what the size of you, your bank account or your likes on social media can you be the warrior and master of your story.✨

Be Powerful.
Be Strong.
Be Brave.
Be YOU. πŸ–€

Always got my back

Can you see the giant COR letters in the background?

Those beauties are from my Pink + BlackΒ #sweet23Β birthday party hosted by the one and only Bo. We had pink + black sushi, all wore pink + black and lived a night that topped a whole lotta nights. πŸ’ƒπŸ» πŸ–€ πŸ’•Β 

These letters were an idea by Bo and made with help (prob made entirely by another friend) have moved with me likely 10-15 times over the years.

I’ve never displayed them til this office, just another reminder he’s always got my back.Β 

We would have had 21 years of friendship on earth this year, seems like a lifetime but it was NOT long enough.Β #wehavepizzatomakeΒ πŸ–€βœ¨

missing my hype man

Months I worked in that empty house.Β 
Scared as hell and wayyy in over my head.

What the hell would I have done without his voice and support?!? Not have gotten these 100s of orders out + probably have to shut down the store.Β 
He even had his doubts there for a minute and didn’t once let me know, til I got everything done… he was like “damn, didn’t think you’d pull all that off to be honest.” 🀣🀣

He saw things and believed in me in a way that made me believe in myself. And once we got going there was no stopping us!

Bo, as I send off another batch of multiple orders through my printer that never touch these hands I thank you again like I do every damn day. For believing in me until I believed in myself.Β 

Imagine someone who loves you so much, they teach you to love yourself. That was my hype man, my BoBo. πŸ–€πŸ–€πŸ–€Β #wehavepizzatomake

We are NOT what happened to us, we are what we choose to become.

π•Žπ•– 𝕒𝕣𝕖 π•Ÿπ• π•₯ 𝕨𝕙𝕒π•₯ π•™π•’π•‘π•‘π•–π•Ÿπ•–π•• π•₯𝕠 𝕦𝕀, 𝕨𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕙𝕒π•₯ 𝕨𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕀𝕖 π•₯𝕠 π•“π•–π•”π• π•žπ•–. πŸ–€

A lesson I will stop at nothing to make sure the boys truly understand.

Walking through Publix yesterday, Carter said. β€œRemember when you used to drink wine?” I said yes I do. He said β€œwhy did you stop?” + even though I have spoken about this to them before I said, β€œI didn’t like how it was making me feel and it wasn’t letting me be the best mom I could be, so I stopped.” Jax chimes in β€œmakes senseβ€πŸ‘΄πŸ»πŸ€£ It’s important to me that they understand that choices make us or break us.

They already have a prime example of what bad choices with addiction can lead. They already see when someone chooses a substance over being present and able to parent them.

They know their father is sick but I also will not sugarcoat that his disease can be treated and he can recover, he chooses addiction. So this is where choices will show true colors regardless of lies and denial.

Today on the beach living our peaceful + abundant life by design I have 11 months free from alcohol and a life time to go, daily teaching these boys that they are meant for greatness + nothing can stand in their way if they don’t allow it.

Κ™α΄‡α΄„α΄€α΄œsᴇ… π•Žπ•– 𝕒𝕣𝕖 π•Ÿπ• π•₯ 𝕨𝕙𝕒π•₯ π•™π•’π•‘π•‘π•–π•Ÿπ•–π•• π•₯𝕠 𝕦𝕀, 𝕨𝕖 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕙𝕒π•₯ 𝕨𝕖 𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕀𝕖 π•₯𝕠 π•“π•–π•”π• π•žπ•–. πŸ–€