Real talk? 🤷🏻♀️
It felt harder after we left.
&& just when I thought we got this. The tidal wave of life swept us away again .
“Usually they stay they say. you left that’s all that matters. You did the right thing. You’re strong. You’re brave. One day they will understand and be so proud.”
You hear this.
You know this could all be true.
But that doesn’t help the guilt, the should have, could have, would haves that keep you up all night.
It doesn’t erase the flashbacks from taking over your mind. it certainly doesn’t help my boys deal with a situation I, an adult wasn’t ready to handle.
It doesn’t pay the bills. && it doesn’t heal the pain.
It does however empower me in times where I can’t go on. && it will always be my beacon on where to just focus my energy, light and love to build us our best life.
Usually they stay…I am brave ++ one day they will understand and will be so proud of me. 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤